So in the Ask Gunnar thread I sought some wisdom. I won’t dig up the thread, but some of you may remember it. After nearly killing myself twice over that bitch I start talking to a chick named Crystal. She helped me get over Jeannie and we meet as she’s about to move to Missouri. We had chemistry right off the bat. I don’t know if any of you believe in past lives, but it’s like we had known each other before. Then we get a hotel together before she left.
Despite the distance, feelings of love started to form. She tells me she wants to put that we’re in a relationship on facebook. I said I’m down with saying we’re in a open relationship, cuz that’s all I really intended it to be. But the more we talked the closer we got. She had really been sticking with me during a low point in my life. She was miserable in Missouri and I was in a homeless shelter. But it wouldn’t be long before she moved back to California.
So we decide to make it official. We spent the 4th of july together in a hotel room and it was by far the best 4th either of us ever had. Lots of sex, booze and pot. But a week later she decides she wants to go back to her roots as a Jehovah’s Witness. Everything might have seemed good, but she had told me that she wants a father figure to her 2 little ones who are 4 and 6. She also has a 23 year old and a 17 year old who each have a kid. How many people can say they’re banging a gilf? A gilf who hasn’t even turned 40 yet?! That’s all the bragging I’m gonna do. Anyways, she wants a father figure and wants ANOTHER BABY!!! All that coupled with the Jehovah’s Witness thing and not wanting to have sex til marriage was enough for me to bail out.
So I break up with her. I really didn’t want to but I’m now 26 and I don’t have my shit together to raise a family. Neither does she. She had to stay at her granny’s house and is now staying with a friend and is sharing a bedroom with the friends son. But in august we couldn’t resist getting another room together. And if she didn’t have so much shit on her phone we would’ve made a porn! She’s got a bit of a sex addiction. But after that night it kinda seemed like closure. She was gonna walk the religious path and find a father figure and I was gonna get my shit together. In fact, during that time at the hotel I looked at a room for rent that I’m now living in.
We kept talking after that and she didn’t get over me. I had invited this chick who’s pretty much my bitch over and fucked. Crystal and I get on the phone and she starts going on about how she’s mad at our situation. I then told her that I brought Melody over and she got pissed. You guys might be thinking that was a dumb move, but I’m open about my sex life.
So we don’t really talk much after that. But one night on facebook she posts something about having a boyfriend. I admit I got a little jealous so I ask her about it. She had just got a job that’s full of druggies. She doesn’t really get down like that, but she was telling me that people were dealing meth out in the open. So her boyfriend turns out to be a co-worker. She hadn’t even known the guy 2 weeks and they start going out and are having unprotected sex and then she tells me he’s going to rehab for meth. We talk on the phone and I pretty much tell her how she fucked up. Of course, she admits that she fucked up. She tells me that she was so heartbroken over me that she had to find a way to get over it. This dude’s going to rehab and he’s talking about getting a place with her. What a fucking crock!
So that leads to tonight. I start texting her and I asked if she got her period. She usually doesn’t get it til the 9th but it’s the 8th so I though I’d ask. She tells me no and I tell her that I guess my prayers won’t be answered. I have my own understanding of God and I pray to it. I really hope she doesn’t bring a child into this world under these circumstances. A couple of minutes later I tell her that she can be mad at me all she wants for me saying that. Told her I love her, but if she gets pregnant then she fucked up. I also tell her that the new guy looks nice but she could do better. I’m not the hottest guy in the world but I’m miles ahead of this guy. He’s a fat biker lookin motherfucker with a fu manchu and she had the audacity to tell me that he and I are on the same level of looks.
I love her but it pains me to watch her fuck up. Anything could happen in the next 24 hours, but if she is pregnant do I keep her in my life and watch her fail? I’m tempted to tell her that I hope she has a miscarriage. I honestly do cuz nobody at her age without their shit together should bring a child into this world. Almost forgot to mention that she doesn’t believe in abortion cuz of her religious background and I doubt she’s gonna give the kid up for adoption. So what do I do. I was hoping for some words of wisdom from Gunnar, cuz I know he ain’t gonna bullshit.