The chain I work for promised a 2 dollar per hour raise for this month, possibly longer depending on what happens from here on out. Not exactly hazard pay, but it’s something, and yo, I still gotta pay rent. Half the employees I talked to wound up not getting it this week.
Essential? More like “expendable.”
Day in and day out, I see people flagrantly disregard basic hygiene, much less distancing and quarantine procedure. Broke things off with a potential galpal a few days ago as she is violating quarantine procedure cuz she doesn’t “care about that COVID shit. I’m gonna live my best life, I don’t give a fuck.” The day she informed me of this, I had just lost a friend due to COVID-19.
I’m stuck in a city very, very far from everyone I want to take care of. My mother is now facing bankruptcy because of the pandemic and even if I could travel to where she is and take care of her, my line of work puts me right in the thick of things and she is considered high risk of mortality if she were to contract the 'rona. My pops works with vectors and diseases and is also high risk so when, not if, he gets it, he’s a goner. My sister didn’t vaccinate her kids, so if my niece and nephew get it, they’re likely dead due to either coronavirus or some other thing. My brother is a line cook on contract at the mo with his city to work soup kitchens, missions, and shelters, and has severe asthma, so if he gets it, he’s history, and his fiance is an RN who just had her floor put under quarantine. My grandmother is 82 with heart and immune disorders so she’s absolutely gone if she gets it. Both of my best friends have compromised immune systems, one minus a functioning liver and another with one kidney, and they’re toast if they get it.
Every single day I have to endure seeing people march their entire families around my store, touching glass and touching their faces. I have to see old folks shopping by themselves. I have to see mothers pushing strollers, the mothers wearing face masks, the kids without. I have to watch kids no older than ten come in and pick up non-necessities for their presumably deadbeat parents. I have to watch homeless folks get arrested for trying to panhandle. I have to watch people just casually chatting and hugging in the aisles when I haven’t been able to so much as touch another person in over two fucking months.
Everyone has so much to lose, and for the first time maybe ever, so do I.
Our elected officials are actually, factually, and demonstrably impotent at doing anything. A (maximum) one-time $1200 band-aid and a shrug are all we’re getting. The plus side to all this is that the 'rona cares not if it’s targets are rich, poor, black, white, brown, smart, dumb, etc. This is the beginning of a new paradigm, and I truly hope the new “normal” is a good one.
Bring back the guillotine.
Hopefully, if, and I cannot help but all-caps stress that IF, we survive this, both mentally and physically, I’ll finally get that chance to just goddamn HUG another person again.
It’s April. 2020 has been, to put it lightly, a clusterfuck since day zed. God give me the strength to make it to 2021.