The Thread About NOTHING!

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Made this thread just for random musings you all may have that relate to…well anything more or less. And rather than start a new thread whenever you have a new thought - just post it here.

Whether it be how shitty/great the weather is where you are, some random news report, some argument you had, something that pisses you off or just something that happened to you one day.

This is the thread to post it in.

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That being said - bought tix to the Queens Of The Stone Age / Nine Inch Nails tour yesterday. And while I’m not really a big fan of either, I can’t help but feel I’m going to enjoy it nonetheless. And I may even buy some merchandise. So I’m happy with that.

But not happy at all with the fact that my beloved Tool will not be heading into the studio “any time soon”…

http://www.toolband.com/index_frames.html

<wipes away tear>

Also, my ex wants to get back with me and is apparently “making plans” to do so…whatever that means…!!

Oh dear.

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Also, my ex wants to get back with me and is apparently “making plans” to do so…whatever that means…!!

Don’t do it, pal. That boat has sailed and she wasn’t on it. If you do take her back you have total and complete control of the relationship don’t EVER give that up. I wouldn’t take her back if it were me though, But that’s only because I’m vindictive in real life and would want to make her suffer as much as she made me suffer… might use her for sex though.

“I don’t care if If your a**hole hurts when I fuck it, you lay there and take it cause you ‘love me,’ whore.”

LOL, tell her that you’ll take her back if she says out loud that Christianity is a pyramid scheme, and Jesus wasn’t divine.

you’ll see how much she wants you back then.

Late,
grmpysmrf

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I just farted. [shocked]

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I returned my neighbour’s mail this morning. I often get his letters and parcels in my mailbox on account of how damn careless and apathetic our local mail depot is. So anyway, I knock on his door and the fucker (Spanish or Portuguese guy, early twenties, something of a fitness freak, fairly buffed) answers the door in the nude. Yeah, in the nude. Can you dig? Acts as if it’s the most normal thing in the world. He didn’t even blink.

That’s all I needed to get my day off to a great start. Not sure how long it will take to get the image of that completely fucking hairless (does this guy wax or what?!!) nude torso and eight inch (fucking thing was like a donkey’s) schlong out of my head.

I will give him one thing though - the guy is freakin’ ripped as all hell. If I had a body like that, well, who knows?

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Tool news is like being stranded in the Sahara, wrenching last drips out of your canteen and the only refill is in the reservoir of your tarnished mind.

Get those cookies in the oven boys

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Whoever thought that remaking The Lone Ranger as a big budget action effects extravaganza must have pudding for brains.

Nobody likes that wild west shit these days. Not even film geeks. It’s just fucking stupid.

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I bought and now live on a 70’ narrowboat. I was nearly late for this morning’s meeting I’d spent 3 weeks organising because I slept through my alarm for the first time in years. They’re already building spacecraft for the new star wars film at Pinewood.

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a couple of students of mine, who are in a moderately successful pop band over here, just asked me who the ‘bass player’ in the poster outside my office was… “Er, Bob Dylan”. kids today [laugh]

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Alright, I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues. I spent some time in Alcoholics Anonymous about 2 years back but I wasn’t really ready to admit “defeat” so to speak, despite the fact that it was obvious to me at the time and especially in hindsight that it was extremely helpful to me.

Recently after going to Israel and having more or less an epiphany “white light experience” of being powerless over alcohol and sick of living in fear, I came back to AA and really plunged into the program. I now have 51 days sobriety, a job at VICE, a blooming solo music career, and I’m learning a hell of a lot about myself.

I sincerely doubt I’ve even gone 50 days let alone a month without drinking or drugging since I was like 17, so it’s a real eye opener. I chronicle everything in a diary so that (God forbid) I manage to convince myself I don’t have a problem again, there will be a clear record that I do in fact have a problem, and that this solution works much better for me.

But you see my understanding of alcoholism/addiction has deepened. It’s not just this simple thing “oh I drank and drugged too much” it’s also the underlying factors: WHY I drank and drugged to much…the ego, arrogance coupled with self-loathing, anger, insecurity, fear, self-centeredness, the list goes on…

Now I am struggling with not so much wanting to drink or drug, but dealing with these emotions that have surfaced (mostly rage, jealousy and loneliness) as a consequence of depriving myself of my former go-to solution for blotting out unwanted feelings.

I want to dive into sexual and intimate relationships, but that is often counseled against during the first year of AA, and for good reason. All I am capable of at this point is a dysfunctional relationship and the drama of it would likely send me off the tracks and lead to me relapsing.

So…yeah that’s where I’m at and it’s good to get it off my chest here and deviate somewhat from the typical cocky attitude I display on this forum and share a piece of myself, which hopefully I won’t come to regret as I have in the past…

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

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Alright, I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues. I spent some time in Alcoholics Anonymous about 2 years back but I wasn’t really ready to admit “defeat” so to speak, despite the fact that it was obvious to me at the time and especially in hindsight that it was extremely helpful to me.

Recently after going to Israel and having more or less an epiphany “white light experience” of being powerless over alcohol and sick of living in fear, I came back to AA and really plunged into the program. I now have 51 days sobriety, a job at VICE, a blooming solo music career, and I’m learning a hell of a lot about myself.

I sincerely doubt I’ve even gone 50 days let alone a month without drinking or drugging since I was like 17, so it’s a real eye opener. I chronicle everything in a diary so that (God forbid) I manage to convince myself I don’t have a problem again, there will be a clear record that I do in fact have a problem, and that this solution works much better for me.

But you see my understanding of alcoholism/addiction has deepened. It’s not just this simple thing “oh I drank and drugged too much” it’s also the underlying factors: WHY I drank and drugged to much…the ego, arrogance coupled with self-loathing, anger, insecurity, fear, self-centeredness, the list goes on…

Now I am struggling with not so much wanting to drink or drug, but dealing with these emotions that have surfaced (mostly rage, jealousy and loneliness) as a consequence of depriving myself of my former go-to solution for blotting out unwanted feelings.

I want to dive into sexual and intimate relationships, but that is often counseled against during the first year of AA, and for good reason. All I am capable of at this point is a dysfunctional relationship and the drama of it would likely send me off the tracks and lead to me relapsing.

So…yeah that’s where I’m at and it’s good to get it off my chest here and deviate somewhat from the typical cocky attitude I display on this forum and share a piece of myself, which hopefully I won’t come to regret as I have in the past…

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

Good man, that’s great to hear, i hope you manage to stick to it. You should be very proud of yourself.

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Alright, I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues. I spent some time in Alcoholics Anonymous about 2 years back but I wasn’t really ready to admit “defeat” so to speak, despite the fact that it was obvious to me at the time and especially in hindsight that it was extremely helpful to me.

Recently after going to Israel and having more or less an epiphany “white light experience” of being powerless over alcohol and sick of living in fear, I came back to AA and really plunged into the program. I now have 51 days sobriety, a job at VICE, a blooming solo music career, and I’m learning a hell of a lot about myself.

I sincerely doubt I’ve even gone 50 days let alone a month without drinking or drugging since I was like 17, so it’s a real eye opener. I chronicle everything in a diary so that (God forbid) I manage to convince myself I don’t have a problem again, there will be a clear record that I do in fact have a problem, and that this solution works much better for me.

But you see my understanding of alcoholism/addiction has deepened. It’s not just this simple thing “oh I drank and drugged too much” it’s also the underlying factors: WHY I drank and drugged to much…the ego, arrogance coupled with self-loathing, anger, insecurity, fear, self-centeredness, the list goes on…

Now I am struggling with not so much wanting to drink or drug, but dealing with these emotions that have surfaced (mostly rage, jealousy and loneliness) as a consequence of depriving myself of my former go-to solution for blotting out unwanted feelings.

I want to dive into sexual and intimate relationships, but that is often counseled against during the first year of AA, and for good reason. All I am capable of at this point is a dysfunctional relationship and the drama of it would likely send me off the tracks and lead to me relapsing.

So…yeah that’s where I’m at and it’s good to get it off my chest here and deviate somewhat from the typical cocky attitude I display on this forum and share a piece of myself, which hopefully I won’t come to regret as I have in the past…

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

Really proud of you Void. I’ve been sober for 7 1/2 years now and my whole life is so different than before, and is much better for it. You’re rig in that the real challenge of the whole thing is, once you’re over the body detox, the fact that drinking/drugging is there as a bandaid for our own fucked up selves and once the bandaid is off, unless you deal with the root causes you’re still fucked.

This sounds cheesy but yoga has helped me a lot with my issues. I strongly recommend some sort of physical practice to go alo with your AA (full disclosure, I’ve never done the steps but have hit quite a few meetings over the years).

If you ever need someone to chat wih that’s totally outside your sphere of friends, pm me and I’ll send you my phone number.

Very best of luck through this challenging time.

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The average person will see someone else’s anus far more than they’ll see their own.

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Alright, I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues.

A-HA!!!

Thought as much! Knew I had you figured out! And you tried to give the impression of a happy healthy positive man about town who…

Nah, I’m just kidding. Sorry to hear about that and hope you pull through. Shit like that is tough. Sounds like you are at a crossroads in your life, ol’ chap.

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

I was going to make a thread like this awhile back.

Do you mind if I ask - on a BAD day, what would you indulge in? What would you consider a “bender”? How much would you do? On a BAD day…

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And in keeping with the general “motif” of this thread:

Now that I think about it…Anthony Michael Hall was a REALLY talented and under rated actor.

You don’t see the likes of him around any more.

[:(]

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I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues.

I don’t think this is an eye catching headline to most on the board… Unless you wrote it more for yourself than anybody else, then congrats on having the courage to write it.

I now have 51 days sobriety, a job at VICE, a blooming solo music career, and I’m learning a hell of a lot about myself.

51 days is a healthy start and almost 3 weeks more than needed to kick weed. I’m not sure when the craving periods end for the other stuff but you’re off to a good start.

But you see my understanding of alcoholism/addiction has deepened. It’s not just this simple thing “oh I drank and drugged too much” it’s also the underlying factors: WHY I drank and drugged to much…the ego, arrogance coupled with self-loathing, anger, insecurity, fear, self-centeredness, the list goes on…

Slow down there partner, EVERYBODY feels that stuff. Addiction doesn’t mean you hate yourself etc, it just means your body has a need for a chemical it woudn’t normally need to survive. I like the idea of AA but I think if not handled correctly AA can screw people up more than the drugs they’re trying to kick. I think, from what I know of AA, it needs to push moderation (just in life, not the drugs) more than “acceptance.”

Now I am struggling with not so much wanting to drink or drug, but dealing with these emotions that have surfaced (mostly rage, jealousy and loneliness) as a consequence of depriving myself of my former go-to solution for blotting out unwanted feelings.

That’s normal, dude. The drugs may have magnified the effects of those feelings, but everyone struggles with those feelings in some form or another. If you continue to focus on them (not saying ignore them but perhaps don’t put more stock into them than you need to) you will always feel inadequate and continue running a race that you will never win let alone finish.

All I am capable of at this point is a dysfunctional relationship…

That’s any given relationship at any given time.

So…yeah that’s where I’m at and it’s good to get it off my chest here and deviate somewhat from the typical cocky attitude I display on this forum and share a piece of myself, which hopefully I won’t come to regret as I have in the past…

I’m so filing this away for future abuse [pirate].
I kid, I kid, This was a very noble post from you.

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

Not me, I believed all of the assemblies my school had on drugs and never missed an after school special. but that’s probably has more to do with me trying to get my parents to love me. [:(]
Late,
grmpysmrf

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Also, my ex wants to get back with me and is apparently “making plans” to do so…whatever that means…!!

Maybe she’s trying to get you to drop the lawsuit… what happened with all of that, if you don’t mind telling us?
Late,
grmpysmrf

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I pretty much know what voidhead is going through.

When my divorce was finalised, I drank. I mean really drank. On a normal day I would have around 5 or 6 beers (the fancier, craft brews like Mountain Goat or Matilda Bay not the regular poisonous shit) - that would be standard. Added to that I’d have maybe 4 or 5 strong vodka and oranges, 2 scotches over ice and possibly a large cider. Plus I was smoking a dozen or so ciggies a day.

That would be an average daily intake.

I followed that routine for about a year. Every day of the week. Not the healthiest of lifestyle options. I’m not sure if anybody else would think that was weak (I have never really pitted myself against anyone in the how much liquor can you handle stakes) but for me that was enough to forget my troubles. I’m lucky I didn’t start on the white stuff, else by now I’d be in trouble.

I found life very hard to face. I had just entered my forties at the time and felt that life was somewhat over. Never dreamed I’d see the other side of that mess. Luckily I stuck through and came out relatively unscathed. Relatively, mind you!

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I agree. Leave the x alone and stay far away.

Let’s see. Went back to work. Have been super busy. Received the back pay, but the taxes/deductions were not correct.

Will see NIN/Gary Numan on Thursday. Like the new GN album, Splinter. Will also catch up with the person who hooked me up with the Echoplex ticket in 2009 as he’s my +1 for Orlando.

Will see GWAR and KMFDM next week.

I didn’t have a panic attack today while someone else was driving. That’s really good progress; I might be able to fly on a plane again come December. However, I will not chance it for Vegas in November. I have to get over this.

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On a normal day I would have around 5 or 6 beers (the fancier, craft brews like Mountain Goat or Matilda Bay not the regular poisonous shit) - that would be standard. Added to that I’d have maybe 4 or 5 strong vodka and oranges, 2 scotches over ice and possibly a large cider. Plus I was smoking a dozen or so ciggies a day.

That would be an average daily intake.
… but for me that was enough to forget my troubles.

Jesus, that would be enough for me to forget to breath let alone my troubles.
Late,
grmpysmrf

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Alright, I’ll bite. For the past several years I have struggled with drug and alcohol abuse issues. I spent some time in Alcoholics Anonymous about 2 years back but I wasn’t really ready to admit “defeat” so to speak, despite the fact that it was obvious to me at the time and especially in hindsight that it was extremely helpful to me.

Recently after going to Israel and having more or less an epiphany “white light experience” of being powerless over alcohol and sick of living in fear, I came back to AA and really plunged into the program. I now have 51 days sobriety, a job at VICE, a blooming solo music career, and I’m learning a hell of a lot about myself.

I sincerely doubt I’ve even gone 50 days let alone a month without drinking or drugging since I was like 17, so it’s a real eye opener. I chronicle everything in a diary so that (God forbid) I manage to convince myself I don’t have a problem again, there will be a clear record that I do in fact have a problem, and that this solution works much better for me.

But you see my understanding of alcoholism/addiction has deepened. It’s not just this simple thing “oh I drank and drugged too much” it’s also the underlying factors: WHY I drank and drugged to much…the ego, arrogance coupled with self-loathing, anger, insecurity, fear, self-centeredness, the list goes on…

Now I am struggling with not so much wanting to drink or drug, but dealing with these emotions that have surfaced (mostly rage, jealousy and loneliness) as a consequence of depriving myself of my former go-to solution for blotting out unwanted feelings.

I want to dive into sexual and intimate relationships, but that is often counseled against during the first year of AA, and for good reason. All I am capable of at this point is a dysfunctional relationship and the drama of it would likely send me off the tracks and lead to me relapsing.

So…yeah that’s where I’m at and it’s good to get it off my chest here and deviate somewhat from the typical cocky attitude I display on this forum and share a piece of myself, which hopefully I won’t come to regret as I have in the past…

Does anyone else here struggle with substance issues and/or has taken the brave step to do something about them?

Yeah, I went to NA (Narcotics Anonymous) religiously for 2.5 years, largely for heavy marijuana use. My experiences were mostly positive. The people are, for the most part, splendid, and amazingly supportive. Not too many people in there for heavy weed use (crack and heroin seem to be the two big devils among NA members here in Queens), but they totally accepted me and never belittled my problem.

I eventually stopped going for two reasons.

  1. There are 12 Steps. In NA, it is often said that only a fool would join a 12 Step Program and not do the Steps. These Steps include acknowledging the problem, turning to a Higher Power for support, accepting the past, making amends, and helping other addicts to do the same. In addition to my refusal to believe in a Higher Power, something I struggled with, I came to the realization that I was never going to do the Steps. This is compounded by my horror of the Step workbook, which most NA members use and has roughly 500 questions (many of them irritatingly redundant) per Step. I don’t poo-poo the positive aspects of the program, and God bless those for whom it has worked, but it is not for me, and ultimately, I felt I wasting my time.

  2. I got diagnosed with ulcerative colitis. The pain is pretty bad. I’ll spare you the other details. The weed shuts off the pain. The equation is simple.

So, there ya go.