I seriously do recommend just downloading some free music software, of which there is a ton, and just fucking around as much as you like.
Thanks for the advice. Did that over the weekend and it helped having something to do. Not really noticing the hours slowly ticking by so much.
But fuck. I applied for approximately 25 jobs last week. All but 2 have come in and all say the same thing:
Thankyou for your recent application for the position of … with … Unfortunately, due to the high number of applicants for this role, you have not been selected for…
You get the drift.
But I did make some absolute killer spicy, deep fried chicken strips and potato salad just now. Feeling good about that.
But fuck. I applied for approximately 25 jobs last week. All but 2 have come in and all say the same thing:
Thankyou for your recent application for the position of … with … Unfortunately, due to the high number of applicants for this role, you have not been selected for…
ooooh I am very familiar with those gut-knifing form letters from ‘human resources’ departments.
I think it’s good practice that, if you don’t want to get further upset and angry, just stop reading the emails after you see an opener beginning with a variation on “thank you for your interest.” It’s virtually never going to be an invitation to an interview if it begins in such a way. It seems like people who have an interest in interviewing will almost always contact you by phone first rather than by email.
I am officially out of work also. Since programming work has been drying up as of late, mounting unpaid bills and masses of paperwork have caused me to shut up shop and I’m now looking for gainful employment, which isn’t going to be easy. I’ll have to sell a few bank shares, which are luckily doing well at the moment. But I will need to find something by January / February as it’s really expensive living where I do.
Fuck it. Looks like I’ll have more time to hit the gym or go sailing or deep sea diving now. For the time being that is.
Update: 15 months now and still unemployed. In another three months I will be what is officially termed “long term unemployed”. Great. Looking forward to that.
I’ve taken up painting classes which is fun. The others in my class are polite but mainly stick to themselves and the teacher is a bit of a knob, so I may change to the evening class which seems a bit more lively.
Still it’s something.
I’ve also started hanging out with a neighbour that until now I’ve only been on “wave as you drive by” terms. I found out he is also long term unemployed and divorced. He is also a massive vinyl collector like myself, and has around 5000 albums and around 2000 cds. Which is twice what I have. So we spend hours pouring over the "rarities in our respective collections and impressing each other with our knowledge of obscure music.
We are both big Miles Davis and Led Zeppelin fans. I guess I am way more into metal (black, doom, drone, thrash, death etc) than he is but his collection of all things metallic is still pretty decent.
I’ve also started eating meals at this cool American style 24 hour diner that I’ve discovered recently. The food isn’t much healthier than what I would eat at home but at least I’m getting out of the house.
I go there for cherry pie or sticky pudding and coffee oat around 11pm and stay til 1. Then I walk the 3kms back home so I’m at least get some exercise. I love that time of night when everybody is asleep and you feel like you are the only one alive.
Glad to hear things have perked up a bit, Am. I hope the job situation turns around for you (assuming you want it to) but in the meantime at least you’re getting out of the house and getting some socializing in.
I’ve also started eating meals at this cool American style 24 hour diner that I’ve discovered recently. The food isn’t much healthier than what I would eat at home but at least I’m getting out of the house.
I go there for cherry pie or sticky pudding and coffee oat around 11pm and stay til 1. Then I walk the 3kms back home so I’m at least get some exercise. I love that time of night when everybody is asleep and you feel like you are the only one alive.
I’ve also started eating meals at this cool American style 24 hour diner that I’ve discovered recently. The food isn’t much healthier than what I would eat at home but at least I’m getting out of the house.
I go there for cherry pie or sticky pudding and coffee oat around 11pm and stay til 1. Then I walk the 3kms back home so I’m at least get some exercise. I love that time of night when everybody is asleep and you feel like you are the only one alive.
It’s a great feeling.
24 hour American styled diners are awesome.[/reply]
That’s one of the best things about living in my part of the States. You can’t throw a rock without hitting a Waffle House.
Maybe a small pet would be good for you. Like a teacup morkie or chihuahua
You could go to dog parks and meet tons of girls
Learn the dynamic of caring for the puppy and go from there
Taking it out to poop and going for walks is good stuff for you, man…
I don’t know if obesity is a factor…you did mention that you tend to feast on lotsa fatty salty food so I’m guessing ur weight may be outta control somewhat?
Try to get a grip on that…having a dog can be a nice fresh start for you and hopefully ur self-esteem will come back thus you can find the joy in other endeavors like playing an instrument, possibly exercising, bicycling, etc…fuck, even bowling is like loads of fun and go with ur dog…you’ll be a big hit granted they allow pets in the bowling alley.
Just spitballing sum ideas for you and you should definitely seek counseling…therapy is more than essential…I’m a firm believer in psychotherapy and you may potentially need meds which is totally fine
It’s nothing to be ashamed of…just think how much better off Al Jourgensen would have been if he got the help that he desperately needed & still needs.
but seriously you will bounce back
and congratz on gathering the nerve to share ur pain & woes
…its that kind of courage that will serve as a catharsis for you to mend and heal and eventually…prevail~