I love Prongs so much. SO HARD.

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And it kills me when I’m not here, because I apparently almost missed a COMPILATION. My God.

But in all seriousness, folks, I’m really glad to be back on the boards, wading through almost 700 new posts.

Don’t mean to make this a Goddamned blog post or something, but life’s just been really, REALLY live lately. Between trying to pass this semester by the skin of my teeth, trying to find some way to pay off the hopsital, looking for a job, my pops going into surgery soon, my gramps on his way out (motherfucker’s been smoking for seventy years, go figure), EXCESSIVE drama with friends (one of whom’s a regular Great Santini now. HOO-RAH.), and me gradually turning into a nervous, anxious wreck kinda cut into fun times at Prongs.

And really, when I’m that fucked in the head, I like to stay off this place. You know, no need to channel that negativity at someone who doesn’t deserve it, as I’m increasingly wont to do these days. I’m losing my fuckin’ MIND.

But now that I got shit settled down for a minute, all least a little bit, well…

Fuck. I just wanna get sappy for just a damned minute.

You have no idea how much I genuinely love all of you Prongers. Prongs became, believe it or not, a very big part of maintaining sanity when I took a trip over the deep end a few years back, and whenever I’m OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD, this place brings me right back with bitchin’ tunes, good times, and genuinely great people.

Call me crazy, but when I’m off the boards, I actually miss you guys. smrf, 1002, dildo, Velvet, Piko, Peligro, Toot, voidhead, wempathy, Xtraterrestrial and pretty much everyone else… You guys are seriously badass characters, and I’m a better man to have made your digital acquaintances.

/fag

It’s crazy how even though professional help was wonderful, this odd combo of records, alcohol, friends, MtG, art, and Prongs keeps me (barely) sane.

But seriously. Afra, bisquitodoom, and Prongs.org regulars… Thanks.

Jesus Christ. Gayest post ever.

[laugh]

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Sure its a bit emotional but its all good man. Ur going thru a tough time and this may be the only place where you can express it. I’m right there with ya on the job situation, plus I gotta find a new place to live by the time summer comes and I dont really have any income at the moment. The perils of waiting on ssi. And yeah I can definatly say that I also dig this forum a lot. Its better than avalanchers or theswining.com

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You’re cool as hell to shoot the shit with when it comes to music. A lot of you fellas. I even check here when i’m at work (kitchen). I felt like I fit in here instantly when I first started posting here. It’s easily a routine of my days to see what’s going on here.

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it’s okay, I said I was in but didn’t make the cut…oh well.

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it’s okay, I said I was in but didn’t make the cut…oh well.

Revco, if you look again I’ve asked for contributors to pm me with their info i.e. band name, track name (if known) by April 30th. So the line-up is not 100% set in stone just yet. After the 30th you will have at least 2 months to make a track for the comp. Just drop me a line [:)]

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Yeah I wasn’t aware there was a “cut”. I highly doubt anyone would have the cruelty in their heart to actually reject a track for this comp…

As for you Icepick, woah sounds like a lot on your plate. You’re a bright guy and you’ll get through it. This is kind of a family here. I understand.

I sometimes think about prongs and the people on here (particularly the Australians) in my waking life. I’ll admit it without embarrassment.

Maybe you should talk to a counselor at school? Explain what’s going on and see if maybe they can’t cut you some slack or at least possibly refer you to someone you can talk to more in depth. It wouldn’t hurt and it’s not like you’re bullshitting for an extension on a paper. I think if you are real about it they will see that. Nothing to be ashamed of.

As for alcohol helping you. I’d be wary of that. Just saying. Nothing wrong with having a lot of fun. Just use it to enhance a good mood, not elevate a bad one.

We are all animals. It’s difficult to focus on a task at hand when our emotions are a whirlwind because of events outside of our control. And emotions are very powerful.

Anyway hope things turn up for you.

As for gay, I’m currently getting ready for a crazy event in NYC that will be filled to the brim with all kinds of freaks and psychofags so this thread t’aint got nothin’ on me! I’ll try to take a picture to show you what I mean…

I’m looking forward to your contribution to the comp. It’s exciting that this idea is finally coming to light, especially when it was originally conceived before the demise of Ministry and this board is now stronger than it was then. Go figure.

Just finished listening to the [Error] EP to get pumped. Didn’t know what to follow it up with but Big Black ‘Rich Man’s Eight Track Tape’ seems to be working just fine…

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I’ve disappeared for quite a bit as well and life has been bizarre to me as of late but I’m happy to be back and icepick I wish the best for you as well.

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Well aren’t you just adorable Icepick, you make me want to snuggle you in my bosom and make everything right for you, you are one of the good guys.

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Everyone is great on this board. Everyone. It’s really cool that no one has had to be banned or posts deleted.

No matter what happens with Ministry (or my affiliation with them, which is non existent), this board will always be here. It’s not even a Ministry forum in that regard but just a prongs one.

I’ve been lucky to meet people off here as well as Litany (I host it but Corey runs it) and the appreciation is solid. It was very easy for me to walk away from the PA but I would never from here and I would do my absolute best to keep Litany going.

Icepick, you said you don’t mean to make your post a blog post, but so what if it was? We can all relate to one another on here and I don’t think posts like that would ever be discouraged. People will read it. You do sound like you have a lot going on and I certainly wish you would keep us updated. Really, please do. I wish your family well being in tough times. Hopefully everything will pan out for your father and grandfather.

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it’s okay, I said I was in but didn’t make the cut…oh well.

Revco, if you look again I’ve asked for contributors to pm me with their info i.e. band name, track name (if known) by April 30th. So the line-up is not 100% set in stone just yet. After the 30th you will have at least 2 months to make a track for the comp. Just drop me a line [:)]
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oh okay, thanks.

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ICepick, trust us if you dissapeared long enough we’d be looking into it… we’ve lost one major player once and after a search of all available avenues and some worry, well we still don’t know where the fuck they went but we hope for the best.

power to icepick messiah

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THE ICEMAN COMETH!!

Yo Bra killer shoutout!

Youre a pretty cool and smart guy Ice. I wish ya the best.

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As for alcohol helping you. I’d be wary of that. Just saying. Nothing wrong with having a lot of fun. Just use it to enhance a good mood, not elevate a bad one.

Totally agree. It works for some people, it doesn’t for others. I’m one of the latter, so I gave it up. Everyone has a vice, though. Even if they think they don’t, they do. It’s all relative.

Irrespective, thanks for the thoughts Icepick. [;)]

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My thoughts with the Iced one. It’s never smooth dealing with the heaviness you’ve got going, just need to show circumstance it aint the boss. When you’re out of it you’ll be swiggin a beer laughing yer ass off, while Dark Side or Greymachine or En Esch is pissing off the neighbours.

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I love you, fag.

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You all are ridiculously awesome. You really are.

<3

voidhead and dildo… I don’t drink myself into depression. I drink for two reasons, none of them terribly destructive, but honestly not too great, either: to enhance a genuinely good time, and to (wait for it) fall asleep when my anxiety and panic keeps me up for days.

Yeesh.

It’s a vicious circle these days. Can’t sleep ‘cause I’m losing my mind, and I’m losing my mind because I can’t fuckin’ SLEEP.

I’ll be good, though. I just need to bug the fuck out or something. Denver sounds nice.

Afra: Thanks for the praise and support. You the man, man.

I know my Gramps is a dead man, though. You can only take so much of a man’s cancerous lungs out before the motherfucker can’t breathe anymore. Kills me, but we both know that’s what’s up. If anything, THAT oughta make me quit smoking, as this will be the millionth person I care about to be killed by a 20-pack of coffin nails… but like dildo says, everyone’s got a vice.

But enough about my nonsense. I’m just glad to have a cool bunch of people in my (digital) life like yourselves.

mick, you and I need to get messed up and piss off my neighbors together someday.

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT. WHY IS THERE ONLY LIKE ONE PRONGER PER CONTINENT. Argh. We need to physically move continents or something.

Oh, and this is easily the best and most touching thing I’ve read all day…

Well aren’t you just adorable Icepick, you make me want to snuggle you in my bosom and make everything right for you, you are one of the good guys.

Yes, ma’am. How could I refuse?

[laugh]

GOD PORKSPAM I FUCKING LOVE BEING A METALLICA SONG

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You know you have an open invite to party in Phoenix any weekend you’re free. I have a pool and a recording studio, what more do ya need. :wink:

Take care my friend.

1002

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Call me crazy, but when I’m off the boards, I actually miss you guys. smrf, 1002, dildo, Velvet, Piko, Peligro, Toot, voidhead, wempathy, Xtraterrestrial and pretty much everyone else

Hey, whatever happened to grmpysmrf?!?!?

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You know you have an open invite to party in Phoenix any weekend you’re free. I have a pool and a recording studio, what more do ya need. :wink:

Take care my friend.

1002

It’s been way overdue, man. WAY overdue.

Olsen: smrf’s been MIA, too, huh? Yeesh, that’s not cool. Last I knew, he was dealing with severe fuckery in the employment department. Hope he’s okay.

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You’ll always have a spare bed at my place to stay and a tour guide if you ever visit Edinburgh Icepick.

As for the panic attacks/sleeping etc…it’s tough because it really is your mind working overtime with regards to everything going on. I’ve been there and I can tell you you’ll pull through after climbing the mountain of this particular section of life.

Life has it’s ups and downs…it’s the balance. Just keep your chin up.